Hot

Really hot!! I'm feeling hot everyday! hot and sweaty.. this is killing me.. i cant sleep at night.. i suffer from heartburn nowadays.. getting emo especially at night. What can i expect? I'm in no position to request for anything, do i? I changed everything. In my whole life have i ever made a right decision? This decision is my most daring decision and changes will occur for sure.. who can i blame anyway?

Blame myself.

Its my fault. But doesnt that mean i cant request for anything in this life already? maybe some things arent meant to be? Am i lucky or unfortunate? How do i see it? I'm lucky to have you in a way. Or am i really having you? Am i indebt to u forever?

What does the future lies? I need myself back! So much sacrifices, so much changes. Can i really be me again? Can i be a good Mom?