The at war and the lonely

The BigPoot is fighting war now whereas i'm still doing the same old thing i have been doing for the past few yrs.. feeling empty, up till now i still dun really know what i want in life!! Argh! Just had lunch with Liyan, her hair has now grown to her butt! Omg.. why my hair never grows till there before..? Kukunardon..



Havent been to Raffles City for ages.. pop by browhaus to see if there's anyone i know.. Nah..all new faces.. went up to the food court ..wow.. there's this choose ur own tempura, yong tow fu style! I chose a few and ordered the jappy curry rice.. such a disappointment..it looks so nice, it shud have tasted nice! Anyways the tempura was ok.. what to expect..it's a food court!



I kinda have to go look at my imaginary child..
Let me intro! This is Xiao Poot Dian, in short we call him "Xiao Poot Poot" and yes, it's a him.
I'm currently home alone with only XPP with me.. im afraid of the dark, i toss and turn at nite, i feel empty, i feel lonely... WHERE ARE ALL MY FRIENDS?

Suddenly i realise i do not have friends? I mean like a best friend. I used to have one. But then again, unreasonably, or maybe after having her own family, we dun talk anymore..and according to Fungus, she just dun feel like talking to me.

WTF? No reason given? I dun even know what's wrong.. anyways this happens like more than a yr ago and yes, we have not spoken since. Till today i still wondered is it cos of my comment on her younger hubby? My friendly advice to ask her to think twice? Well, if that's the case then i have nothing more to say.. as she used to criticised my boyfriends(ex) and current too! Though, i might not like it but i thought being us, being best friends, we are allowed to talk about everything! We used to do that. But then again.. people changed, things changed.

Let it go..

Thinking now.. who do i have other than BigPoot? It seems like everyone is just a friend where i see once in a blue blue moon.. it seems like im too old to actually start making new girl friends again.. im not too bothered abt my attitude, my sloppiness, my everything anymore. Entertaining seems damn tedious.. i feel like being alone all the time, but when im actually really alone, after doing all the things i wana do alone, i started feeling empty and lonely.

Maybe it's the age.. everyone my age seems to have settled down.. or have their own group of friends to mix with.. and i have turned into a boring, everyday stay at hm person.. nobody ever jio me out anymore since i stopped clubbing,since i stopped staying out late, since im attached? since i got fatter? since i cant go anyways? BigPoot says that those friends who only can go chiong with me ones isnt real friends.. why must my friends always jio me go club? He keep asking..

I seems to have the answer, but inside of me refuse to admit it..

I happen to find out by accident tat someone is attached! For 3 mths! Surprise surprise~

Im so hungry, yet i'm so lazy.. can i just shout and somebody sends me food? Alright. It's not gonna happen.. i shall go buy KFC.. even though i jus got better from the h1n1-like flu.