The other path

Friends on one hand.. tends to always disappear. regardless of reasons, never really understood me, never really treasured me, never really thought of me as a friend. i happen to always be the bad guy i duno why.

My life now consists of my boy only. seriously i need someone to talk to now.. but i couldnt think of anyone. basically i have no one but myself.

when i go drinking, i liked the dark noisy atmosphere, i felt like i belonged there. everything is fake. drinking can make u forget and be happy, its kinda true.

im now being controlled. i can no longer go as i like. i can no longer have freedom.

If i have taken the other path, i would have freedom but financially unstable. would i still feel as empty?

Happy families are all in the movies. In real life there simply isnt happy families. maybe its jus how easily satisfied you are.

A father , A mother and A child.. seems like a perfect family. behind this, lies alot of unknown. unexpected stuff. who is right and who is wrong?

Do i really wana spend my life like this? what do i really want?

Family

i have everything yet nothing, sometimes i wonder how things will turn out if i take the other path.